Recently, I've been wishing to be more intelligent (ironic that this is my first year ever not being in school since what, kindergarten?). I mean I was always inspired to be smart, like from watching Good Will Hunting, but never motivated enough to get there, I've always lacked enough focus. I've never been the brightest boy, but in this transitional period of my life into the real world I wish to look like I'm smart enough to get here and go beyond. Really it hasn't been bad, I'm confident enough to say I'm not real stupid. I've got good resources and I'm smart enough to use them : ). But it'd be nice to be smarter and better than I am, that's all.
Motivation and Focus. I lack a lot of this. It's so on and off, even for the things I love and have passion for. Man this world's rough eh? Discipline is always key. Balance is always key. Seeking Jesus is always key. I need this more right now... this is a daily/moment to moment thing. I need to keep moving forward and not look back on where I've been stuck.
It's time to decide
Which is out of my mind
Cause it'll be me unless I put some thoughts to rest and leave some faults behind
I'll watch the glint in my eye
Shine off the spring in my step
And could be blinding depending on the amount of You that I reflect
- Matt Thiessen